I'm at the airport waiting for my flight. I have time to spare, start walking around, and see a chapel. Now, I'm completely agnostic, the only reason I don't say that I'm an atheist is because there is no evidence to deny the existence of a god, in whatever form. I would say I'm a 6.8 on the Dawkins scale, for anyone who has read the book. Yet, I actually walked into the chapel and prayed. Nothing traditional, because I was raised in a pretty religion free household so I don't know any formal prayers. But for some reason I just sat there and had a conversation, more like a negotiation, with the "entity" that may or may not exist. I basically told It that if the remote possibility of Its existence is possible, then damn dude, you screwed me over. Then, with complete knowledge of the remoteness of that possiblity, I requested that It at least not throw evil people in my way for a bit (especially men) and if It had any special powers at all, to please give me the strength and focus to get my **** together. I think that this is a sign of complete desperation on my part. I have never prayed for real, I just sit there and look around whenever there is a wedding or a funeral that requires a religious service. Do any of you pray? Does it help? And how if it does?
Edit: I thought of posting this because I was reading the recent thread on meditation and I thought that maybe people do this for a similar reason, or get a similar result?
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