I called the cops on him one time when he grabbed my neck and slammed into the wall, but because I didn't have any physical markings, the cops didn't do anything. The cops just told me to get a PFA which my parents talked me out of, and I had to abide by their rules cause I live in their house. So I felt torn, even though my parents are very loving parents they are dense though and don't understand the severity of my brother. The most they did was yell at him to never put his hands on my again, and they were just saying to him how wrong he was etc. But they wouldn't let me get a PFA. I think in their minds they think just by yelling at him and telling him he's wrong, that will suffice. Like that is all, ok, move on with our lives, type of attitude. When the emotional scarring is there, so nothing is just forgotten about. I am just so sick of parents and everyone saying "forgive" when why should I forgive? To feed his ego even more? So he could just abuse me more? I want him to know I hate him. I don't want him to think there is any love in my heart for him.

My parents think it hurts him a lot that I am not speaking to him and I want nothing to do with him, but he's not hurt, his ego is hurt, that's all. He feels like he has no control, he feels like he can't manipulate me, so of course he is going to be hurt about it, cause none of his BS is working, it has nothing to do with me, it just because he wants control and nothing is going his way, so of course he's going to act like he's "hurt"

I just hate my situation and feel very alone, so I appreciate everyones advice and support, thank you.