you know what? i have tried so so hard to make my marriage work.
i know i'm not the easiest person to live with, not by a long shot. but my husband really would test the patience of a saint.
had a good time this evening before friends turned up. lured him to bedroom, inevitable, been married 19 years, tough sometimes i know, but i try to keep things going, interesting etc etc. then in front of friends he just puts me down and makes me look stupid.

why? i'm going through a lot at mo. he knows this. i need support. i need to leave. he shows no love or affection, just anger and indifference. just can't put up with him anymore.
even my kids have expressed the same feelings, they would be happier if i left him.

joys of life eh? why can't some people just be happy that they have someone who loves them.

i just don't feel it's returned.can't stand it any more

jin