One of the issues I have is not knowing the name of specific doctors and clinic names. Here is my issue in brief:

- Cannot hold a job, fired from almost 40 jobs in 25 years.
- Diagnosed with knees that have a birth defect leaving me in pain often.
- Very bad back but not diagnosed by doctor yet, always they put it off when I asked to have an MRI of my back done, instead they focused on my diet and weight control which failed miserably.
- Just saw the psychologist for the first time to do intake papers and testing but no diagnoses made yet.

This is what I have. I am at the point where work is destroying me in my mind. I life now without any self confidence or love of myself. This has caused me to become a hermit and I never go out. One, because of the emotional abuse and two, because I am always in debt (8k at the moment) from living on credit while unemployed then paying it off in time to lose my job again.

My psychologist gave me the impression that he thinks I am very smart and chose to work for jerks. But I know there must be more to it.

I wondered if I should just apply with no paperwork, get denied then try to get an attorney and gather my papers OR if I should get everything now and apply once I have all my papers and a psychological diagnosis.