Dear dear (((((((((((Jax)))))))))))))
You are not a b&!$#!
The reply to my post you made not even an hour ago, plus countless other times show that you are a wonderful human being. Not everyone is going to like you, yes. Sometimes people won't like all of your personality, yes. But that does NOT mean that you're a b*!$%.
And yes, a lot of the time society is a mean something-or-other.
I think you're nice, I'm sure lots of people here think you're nice. You ARE.