I cut my wrists, he didn't see it than I went to him bleeding and started to cry and if I am honest- I really can't remember this, I said- okay I will fall down the stairs, he took the phone to call the ambulance and followed me, I was on guardrails, he pulled me to him and didn't let me fall, he was standing there while I was running away. Than I texted him crazy messages, also evil phrases, he texted back- you should call the ambulance. I called him but it was 10 PM and I thought it's too late to call. He didn't answer. I texted him- I just wanted to hear your voice. I was completely out of my mind and wanted to leave him and just lost from his life but he called me at 11 PM and asked me am I okay and where I am and said I'm so cruel. After some days I texted him- please forgive me. He replied- we need to talk about this at session. I texted back- please tell me that you forgive me. He didn't replie.
Today I asked him thousand times- Do you forgive me? He didn't want to answer. At the end he said- I forgive you because you are my patient. I think he can't forgive me, I don't know.