I came to this new location for work. For past one year I was online friend with this guy (nothing romantic, just friends) who stays in this location. I'm completely new to the place and its culture and when I actually moved here, I was relying on this online friend. We shared so much in our chats and talks, I always made sure he isn't alone anytime. Any problem he faced, I would be there for him at anytime, any hour, even if it meant to be awake whole night. He did acknowledge it.
But, ever since I've come here, things have gone bad to worse between us. I had expectation that he will be my support here, but he would come for my help only when he could easily spare the time, which meant in my 1st ten days he came only for 3 hours. I had to search for my accommodation, shift on my own, shop on my own, etc etc. So, finally one day out of anger I told him that I'm doing everything on my own, so he needn't help me. He got agitated that what else can I do for you, he doesn't understand how difficult it is to settle in a new place with entirely different culture.
Anyways, I'm now settled. So, was bit calmed but then things at work started going all wrong. My boss is making sure that I don't get due credit of my work. I called this guy to talk about all this and take out my frustration (not on him, just talk it out by discussion) and he cut the call stating I don't know how to talk to my boss. He didn't even listen to everything.
I accept that I might be wrong or may be since my work culture is different, my thinking and expectation is also different. But, was it right on his part not to listen to me, when at everystep and every problem of his life I've been standing there for me, even if it was difficult for me to manage that time for him.
I'm feeling so lonely and am hating myself. I wish I was dead but I don't want to commit suicide.