I'm pretty lost and adrift right now, I struggle to find any meaning or purpose that isn't negative. I have my dog and I love her to bits, she is my reason for living right now, but even a healthy emotion like love feels self indulgent, what right do I have to love? Also why should an animal be so important? I know I chose to give her a home and that makes me responsible for her but why do I love an animal over people? There must be a meaning to my choice but I'm scared to look it in the face because I will see selfishness.