And I'm not talking about weight loss. Well it's me again and the downward sprial known as my life. Long story short so I don't bore you. I bought a used car for 2800 tested it, got my dad to look at it who's a mechanic and it checked out so we thought. The day I pick the car up 2 major malfunctions. Now I'm stuck with it and can't even sell it.

Been to several car dealerships and they say me filing bankruptcy two years ago was a kiss of death for me. And I'm already out of 2800 bucks and they want me to come up with more cash to get a newer used car. I'm drowning in my rent and utilities and still with no rilable car.

My family finds this funny and I'm trying my best to stay positive but to no avail. I'm getting doors slammed in my face and all I'm trying to do is stay afloat and get ahead. I'm starting to go back to those old thoughts, I can't do anything right and why am I even here. I try to do the best I can and live right and all I seem to get is screwed. I feel exactly like Michael Douglas in the movie Falling Down. Life hates me and I see it now. And being depressed makes it worse