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Originally Posted by henrydavidtherobot
Today, I went to a general doctor that I saw once before for anxiety to refill my sleep and anxiety meds and he kept asking if I really thins I am fit to move to China with Cyclothymia (idk if the BPD is on my notes or not) and my anxiety. He expressed concern for my health and asked if I thought of hurting myself and asked if I was lying when I said no. He asked if I have a plan with my family to move back home if I can't take it.
I feel so discouraged. I'm already scared about having an episode overseas and acting out from being alone. I know that he is a doc and is just looking out for my best interest--but ouch! I need encouragement, not fuel for my mental fire.
What am I supposed to do? Not follow my dreams, take risks, advance my career, or enhance my emotional independence because I have mental health issues. They shouldn't compromise my life!
Guidance and/or encouragement would be appreciated.
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you know HD, when i first read your post, the first thing that came to mind
was the shock i felt when i moved from michigan to ohio & i didn't even know
i had BPD then, but just having to learn a whole new set of friends was a bit much for me. i used to drive 3hrs every weekend back to michigan because i was so lonely( i didn't really know anyone in ohio).
so i though, hmmm....china, another country,BPD, i don't know if that's a good idea,sounds like it's got disaster written all over it.
but, you gotta go after your goals & chase your dreams( that's the only way they'll come true!) then i thought about why i left michigan & came to ohio
(to start my own business & follow my dreams) & i thought " this is a tough one HD, i'm gonna have to eat some dinner and come back and think about this one before i comment".
so about maybe an hour goes by & i come back to the post...
come to find out you've been to prague before and that makes it a lot easier for me to give my 3 cents..
follow your dreams....go, do it. do it for you if you don't you'll always be going through life wondering "what if"
that's not something i ever wanted to do, i believe in taking risks, somethings (many) have blown up in my face, but a lot of good things have happened too.
i followed my dreams and the business/financial side of my life is great.
i own my own business and can do what i want when i want (freedom)
( i was never a good employee anyway!! hee hee) but if i don't come
to ohio, if i stay in michigan, i wouldn't be as successful as i am today.
yes i have my problems,shortcomings, issues(BPD,alcohol,relationships,etc)
but i'm doing everything i can to live life to the fullest, it's the only way i'm gonna be able to break out of this.
i think you would be doing yourself a disservice if you didn't go
as simple as that.
there's gonna be some times you're gonna be lonely& some nights will be tough, but the experience, it's gotta be priceless, good luck HD, i wish you well
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