Do you ever feel like everyone is included on something except for you? Like people all around you are friendly, joking around, and talking. And you are just there kind of "on the sidelines" observing, and feeling left out? I seem to be feeling this way lately and I'm not sure if it's due to my own neglect of self-love, and trying too hard to seek validation externally. Or if I'm not making enough of an effort to be involved with people. But whenever I do try to involve myself with people, I get shy and awkward and don't know how to act. It's like a vicious cycle. I wish I could just be calm, collected and natural at talking to people like I used to be. And get out of my own head. I'm always second-guessing myself and worrying about what people think. If I could just stop focusing on these things then I would be able to understand and relate to people. I feel like I'm so inward-thinking and I just want to focus on what is going on around me, rather than my internal processes! UGH