i really like what indestructible girl said in both her posts. you can be strong and feel sadness & fear too. it's not an either/or but a both/and. allowing others to care for you in your weakness is a very strong thing to do. it takes great strength. is there hope for remission for your cancer? please forgive me if i am prying and you don't want to answer, but i am not sure what your health situation is.