I'm home from work and very tired and cranky. The stuff on my face is infected and I started putting neosporin on it this morning which looks like it's helping. The nurse at my docs wanted me to come in to see the doc tomorrow but I feel stupid number one, cause if the neo doesn't do it a script of bactroban will. Call it in! I'm sick of going to the doc, eventhough I like her this feels petty. The other reason is that my friend is having her very old horse put down tomorrow at the same time as my appointment and I want to be there for her. She is a real friend and she's in pain so I feel like I should go and help her. No one but me ever holds her or lets her cry, everyone leans on her and I want to support her. Now I'm saying that but I paged her today and had her pick up dog food for me because she was in the town 40 miles away where I get it. I've been sad all day and had this panic response when work paged me and I was out of cell phone range. I had to tell myself not to get wound up, slow down, breath, it's okay. Sick always makes me sad because it brings back the neglect I suffered from so severly. So I don't know which end is up and I'm gonna nap and see how that feels. Thanks again kind souls