I'm glad you were able to talk with your therapist and clarify somethings. Some of progress you have made in your healing journey is very similar to mine. For me, as I healed I was afraid of therapy ending, because I was getting better, even though I knew therapy was to last as long as I wanted, in to my 90's if we were both still living. Because I used PC at times as to what's suppose to happen in therapy, I thought the next step was erotic transference. I showed her an article from PC, and asked what if that happens to me, and she said it was her responsibility to hold that boundary- only time she used the word boundary. I was thrilled with her response. A few months down the road, it was painful to tell her I finally reached that erotic point. I thought she was being cruel to make me say it out loud, and also because my upbringing left me somewhat sexually repressed. Well any way, I eventually got it out, and when she said she was not attracted to me in that way, It could never be, and boundaries, etc. I was so relieved, because I could go back to loving her like I did before; parent/child love. She was so loving in the way she turned me down. I then felt free to pursue a relationship with a former boyfriend, but realized at the time I was not quite ready for that. My sweet kid recently said he's okay with me pursuing a homosexual relationship - like he has a say in my love life, but who knows, I have come to believe that sexuality can be fluid.

I look forward to following the rest of your journey, IndestructibleGirl - Progress is happening.