I can relate to all you have written in your post and to the replies you have received. This is the biggest area of T for me too. Is it my T I need more than the Therapy itself? I long for a connection in a maternal way and so wish I had a mother like her. It just seems to dominate everything. I just cant seem to get past it. It really hurts.

Well done for being so brave and honest about your feelings. I know exactly what you mean about the "stab of grief" - I feel this too. How do we get past this? Keep posting, its really good to hear your progress.