For me it's metaphorically like food. Like having not enough money for a full and nutritionally rich diet, but enough to survive and just get by most days - so technically I don't 'need' her.. Then some days the hunger creeps up and I feel starved and need her with intensity and urgency, the thought of her leaving my life forever panics me, like I'm really famished but for nurturance. Then other days it's just kinda wistful, like wouldn't it be lovely to have really nice ice cream, but it's not a necessity.
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Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I
I got a war in my mind
~ Lana Del Rey
How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone
~ Coco Chanel
One is not born, but rather becomes, a woman
~ Simone de Beauvoir
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