Glad you are learning to recognize the different stages mina mango and that you are better This will help you in your future when, and hopefully not, when you may experience another episode or depression. Believe it has a lot to do with hormones at that age, and the fact that you did not receive the hep you needed at the time. I experienced some very dramatic events as a young child and wish these had been addressed better at the time Now years later, I am discovering where my issues started. Just my thoughts Again, glad you are better!!!!