I did it ! I tiny step but surely one in the right direction. My boyfriend and I were having a disagreement over something neither of can directly control and I got mad at him as I typically do and I left. I called him later and told him that I wanted to make sure that realized I was not angry at him just hurt and disappointed. I told him I was done turning away from him and blaming him when I get upset because that is silly and cuts my nose off to spite my face, meaning that I deprive myself of his emotional support because I am angry. I am so pleased and surprised with myself.