Hi Rose,
I feel your pain, this is a very tough situation. You have you and your children to keep safe, happy and healthy. It sounds like you are working very hard to provide for and maintain a family atmosphere. Is it a safe and secure, does it provide you with warmth, care and a sense of "home"? Or, does it stress every ounce of life, self worth and value out of you, just to keep on going and pushing, pushing, pushing everyday?

You asked for advice, honestly fear is the only thing standing in your way.
I have been right where you are standing. You are responsible for YOU and YOUR children that's it. YOU have all the answers. Weigh the pros and cons of this situation, your worth and values and children are observing whether you see it or not.
Jade