I met with my new caseworker from ORS today. They help people with disabilities find and keep jobs. Instead of physical disability since the papers I had from the doctor was from last winter, she is claiming mental disability. She said I definitely had a disability, but I'm not sure if that was in reference to mental, physical or both. Based on our conversation, she is referring me to a special program or place that can help me with housing, therapy, and lots more, I think. I don't really know much about it, but since the State would be referring me there, it would at least be monitored by the State, but not technically run by them. She said that she thinks I shouldn't be working. Returning to my last type of work can sometimes cause emotional triggers from PTSD, and my emotional status today was kind of nervous being at the appointment, so the PTSD showed right through. I had a letter from a T who I saw temporarily for just about a month once while I found someone else to take over. That letter said specifically "post traumatic stress disorder, chronic, severe". The letter was dated a year old, but that's what she copied for my file--not the work restriction forms from my orthopedic doctor. If I am determined to be not able to work due to PTSD--plus the medical restrictions which extremely limit work I should do--I don't know if it's good or bad. It can be good in some ways. But how is it or could it affect me seeing and being with my children if I am on mental disability?! I don't know if it would be looked at as two separate areas, work and general life/parenting or what. Could I be considered unable to work for psych reasons, yet still be considered okay to be with my kids? I just don't know what to think or expect of all this right now. Part of me is excited, the other part scared.