I always try to make my friend feel bad,by being rude to her. I do not know why I am such a horrible person to her. She is the only person who I am mean to, I am nice to others. Its usally when I feel depressed, or when I am really angry, & irritable.

Feel worthless, & feeling like a burden to some many people is horrible, I just want to die, I haven't seen the point in living for along time. Now, I like to feel depressed when I am not, & I enjoy my suicidal thoughts. I try to tell someone either by email, & a memeber here even helped me, but I can't send it Now I jsut feel like I wasted there time.