T has had builders in her home since before xmas. I did kind of ask once what was happening. She said its a long story re an extenstion etc.

Well yesterday I asked her if she is getting fed up with strangers in home all this time? She laughed and said "they don't feel like strangers anymore, using my toilet etc"

Then she asked me does it worry me? I said no I just know when I have strangers indoors I just want to hide out. She then said that actually its quite nice at times having someone there.

I smiled and thought no more about it, but that statements "Its quite nice" I don't want her to think that! I feel as if she's betraying me! I don't think having people around is quite nice! infact I hate it! she should hate it too! I feel as if I want to throw T away now! She's created a distance between us! should be like me! exactly like me!

ok I'm insane! I don't want to say this to her on MOnday cause I can see her sitting there just smiling and I will have to sit with the anger!!!

shoot me!