I've been in a very unstable (verbal/ emotionally abusive) relationship for a little over a year. It has always been rocky, him breaking up with me then crawling back apologizing, me taking him back and loving him fully.

For the past month I have been standing up for myself. I finally had enough. I am finally tired of pretending everything is ok. Yesterday we finally ended it, today is the first day since we met that we have not said a single word to each other.

Of course even though the relationship was rough, and he wasnt very nice to me, I still loved him. Im having a very hard time and feel like i didnt get closure.

How do I do it, im scared that he will try to come back ( even though I want him to badly) and I will take him back and end up hurt again.

I got a job offer 1400 miles away from here, I didnt want to do it alone, but I guess now I will have to, I have to get away from this town, these memories, this hurt.

just looking for someone to talk to that might be able to help me through the grief that I feel