I think that you should praise yourself for taking care of a family member, rather than berate yourself for them passing. I think taking that on in the first place is very admirable.

I think your recovery will be slow but definitely achievable and in time you will make friends. Please be kind to yourself and now the summer is coming maybe go out amongst nature as I am sure that will help.

I am around if you want to talk, please pm me. We should encourage one another to take steps to go out and do things that we enjoy

Thank you for sharing your story and lots of love to you xxx