Haha Na you didn't get off track .....I think I just 'feel' I "need" someone like even if I'm in the "friend zone" I'm still pretty much happy with that .... I don't know I guess I enjoy the attention from the person/s I am interested in. ...am I a attention seeker? I and why us it any sudden noises scare the cr@p out of me and why do I feel the need to be 'loved' as I don't have parents/family issues ? Why the heck do I prefer such quiet environment? And when I'm in a crowded environment I get panicking and hard to breath I have to like run out of the place/s and get some air ? Are these called anxiety or panic attacks if so why do they happen? and as for sexuality I am extremely accepted of it so is family and friends for Me it's no big deal with sexuality ....