No. She has never been that harsh. Well, she has been that harsh, but pretty quickly makes up for it. Like when she forgot to call me after Christmas, the next time I saw her, she didn't say a word. She just walked straight to me and gave me a hug for about 30 secs.

She says she'll never apologize to me because apologies don't matter. But she will try to make up for whatever wrong she does through her actions.

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I guess I'm hoping that she had a bad day, and I really freaked her out, so I got some anger? Or that I am only to "read" reactions/emotions through facial, vocal, and physical queues together (not individually)? Maybe she couldn't read my emotion (she did ask at one point if I was faking it/lying to her )

I don't expect her to be my best friend. I don't expect to ever be a part of her life (meet her family, friends, see her house, see her baby, etc.) I don't ever expect to hear the words "I love you". But if she couldn't/doesn't care about me...she should have NEVER been my therapist. I made it clear from day 1 that I actually need transference to open up...that w/o it I will NEVER trust her. That she had to be okay with hugs because it's the only way for me to be 100% sure if I'm safe with a person. We promised 100% honesty to each other. We promised each other it would be more a partnership than a hierarchy. I know I'm her "job". But as a human, she can care about me beyond a professional view. She has to keep a "professional" role unless otherwise agreed upon, but she still can care. I assume most T's have a heart?