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Originally Posted by Hopelessly Hopeful
I know it can be painful. We had a major fallout at the end of a recent session and I was apologizing and she responded telling me she had a long day of work and was tired and that now she needed the work to stop so she could rest. I felt awful being reminded I am merely a job. After a few sessions I realized her response was the result of a bad day and she never says things like that. I think my behavior just made her mad and when I act that way she does feel like it is hard work. I understand now.
I'm sorry your T said that. Mine also said we will discuss next session when this happened and my heart dropped. The pain eased after a couple days and the next session she didn't even bring up the fallout! Hang in there.  Try to occupy yourself with activities and other thoughts so time goes by faster and you could talk this out with her.  |
I'm really hoping it was a bad day. I know she worries/scares/panics easily. I know I truly freaked her out...she has never seen me this bad. Plus...I think she called the cops on me...not 100% sure though. She "left town" Thursday...which is odd because that's not normally her day off. We were also talking about discovering her "B****y side last week. Hoping that's what I found
And I have been trying to "save" myself from needing hospitalization. I contacted the crisis line. I contacted my pdoc (who also didn't work this Thursday or Friday...) But another pdoc changed my meds for me. I cleaned the whole house...lol And I wrote my T every little thing I could think of and put it in size 3 font so she could "skim" how I felt much faster.
I know some people would LOVE contact with their T in between sessions. I'm starting to think it's not very helpful for me
