If actions speak louder than words...then she does. Just was kind of mean to say what she said, how she said it, and when she said it.

I just realized too...she might have been using my fear of abandonment and rejection against me. Instead of me wanting to end my life, she freaked me out by pushing me away which made me then fight for her. If that's the case, she's so freaking smart. I'd be more impressed than upset if she was that clever to flip the situation on me like that. If that's true, it actually worked. I'm so much more focused on her now than I am on my depression. And she does normally do everything opposite of what I want to do...

Guess why some really do deserve to get paid