I'm really hoping it was a bad day. I know she worries/scares/panics easily. I know I truly freaked her out...she has never seen me this bad. Plus...I think she called the cops on me...not 100% sure though. She "left town" Thursday...which is odd because that's not normally her day off. We were also talking about discovering her "B****y side last week. Hoping that's what I found


And I have been trying to "save" myself from needing hospitalization. I contacted the crisis line. I contacted my pdoc (who also didn't work this Thursday or Friday...) But another pdoc changed my meds for me. I cleaned the whole house...lol And I wrote my T every little thing I could think of and put it in size 3 font so she could "skim" how I felt much faster.


I know some people would LOVE contact with their T in between sessions. I'm starting to think it's not very helpful for me