She now works in schools with children. But I want her to be my T If not I need her to be a friend... I miss the connection I never have with regular friends. They don't really connect on this level I have with her. I crave what I experienced in therapy. The new T I have had only 2 appts with and not yet feeling anything accept to be able to explain so much of what I felt with my time with Ex T. Seems Cray Cray to me to be in therapy because of Ex T leaving. To work through it. Going to attempt EMDR to help with the strong emotions so I can better talk about missing Ex T. Not as strong as Ex T says I am. I fall to pieces just looking at photo's I have of her etc. I guess it is considered my first real relationship break up. Even though I am divorced. Oh well... that is what I am working through.