Yeah having depression then dealing with set backs such as this doesn't help, when finances just aren't there to buy the things you need, a stressful work environment, and severely negative family (I don't live with them).

I come from a famy of 4 boys I'm the youngest and I'm closest to my oldest brother who just so happens to be diagnosed and dealing with major depression. But he goes in and our of speaking because of his disorder so I can't talk to him, my other brothers could care less, my parents well that's not a good idea. And my therapist I can't seem to reach her anymore for an appointment. So all these things I've started to isolate myself all over again. Dating isn't an options all the ladies I seem to attract are judgemental if they find out about my depression. Friends well lets just say people TRY but don't succeed, to use me.

So all in all this aids in me feeling like my life is a waste and I'm a loser. I've been ripped off on a car, a motorcycle, a laptop PC, and even in my hobby and you guys might find odd. I'm an avid target shooter and gun owner. I've even been ripped off on that aspect. Plus my apartment is killing me on utilities and I've tried moving 3 times with no luck because I don't make enough to upgrade. It's like when will it end.