laborintensive:
it's not really about being fired. i know i wouldn't be, my boss has a lot of faith in me. He is trying to ensure i don't leave on my own violation so. it's that i feel like the loser, inadequete for the job and nobody gets that. this just proved i'm not good enough for it, i tried telling my boss more then once.

Roads:
way to go guy! 23 yrs of sobriety is an awful lot. i don't see that possible for myself, be proud.
thing is, currently i'm not being treated at all, and no i don't have any form of a support system other then pc.