Hi lelem - Actually, I tried several times because I was so despondant and even gave up on getting help because it never seemed to work out. Though I was ignorant about what kind of help to get. Then someone else became concerned about me and encouraged me to seek help one more time. He even called the doctors once I made an appointment to get them to see me earlier (My appointment was a week and a half out). The office called me the next day and got me in within 48 hours. I can't say how touched I was when I found out what he did for me! From there things just went on a roll until I ended up with a therapist. I think the breakdown at work helped convince me. I'm not sure I can really explain how down and crazy I felt - almost unable to get help at times. It took me a while because I would get really bad and then the next day wake up and feel fine - so I'd forget about it. That's my story in a nonsequitar brief way.