Oh - I thought you meant eventually - after the year. I take it that Lithium really hasn't done anything for you, then? I'd talk about that with your doctor - it can be dangerous just stopping these kinds of drugs. Perhaps they'll try something else. But if you really don't want any drugs, I'm not sure anyone can force them on you - without committing you that is. I used to be anti-drug and afraid of them changing who I am, but my life is so much better now and I think I'm more myself now. I'd give it a chance since you seem to be suffering. It doesn't sound to me like you like the way you've been feeling.