Couldn't stomach the thought of meds last night. Or this morning's (did take later.) Got to p/u my mood stabilizer in a generic I'd had before. The previous fill was a mfg that didn't work so well. BF said I underestimate how much(!) And said I really should start keeping a mood chart again. Sigh. I've thought the same. Later made a long put off phone call, then a current one. These both got me pretty anxious and wound up. Then we've had these moths and they were wigging me out. By then I was truly a case and talking a mile a minute and jumping at absolutely everything. Even at… dust?! I thought they were very very tiny bugs I'd never seen anywhere before, but…far more likely it was dust. Good times. Sheesh. Wasn't too nuts about heading out into public at that point. But at least there weren't any moths out there (the 1/2 benzo probably helped too… and BF going with me. You do all the talking, I'll be busy trying to look "normal".).

Sleep Weds: zero TH: 3 1/2 Tonight? Dunno, but it's 5 am and think I'm tired enough to sleep. We'll see, but yeah, I'll be knocking myself out just to be sure, because this hasn't been going anywhere good...