Hello.

I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), which causes me severe, morbid depression. I'm wondering if anyone has any helpful tips about this disorder, as it is not very well known.

I have become agoraphobic due to this disorder and it has been getting worse over the past year. I lie in bed seven days a week, rarely ever leaving my home. I am a young woman in my 30s. I've tried several treatments, such as medications, cognitive behavioral therapy and natural supplements.

Nothing seems to work. I'm looking for some hope. Whenever I read stories of this illness, I see that it has the highest right of suicide. I have talked to mothers who have lost their children to this disorder.

I'm hanging on by a thread, trying to stay alive and push through all this pain.
I'd love to have a life where I can walk outside my front door without feeling like I'm fighting off a hungry tiger. Anxiety from BDD is so exhausting. There are so many things I'd like to do and places I would like to visit, but I'm stuck inside these four bedroom walls everyday.

I have been treating with a psychologist for 3 years. However, we still have been unable to come up with something that helps. If you know of this disorder, would you happen to have any suggestions? I'll take suggestions even if it is just for depression.

My mind is so dark and dreary, I want that to change. I want a life outside of this misery. Thank you for reading & responding if you do. Take care.