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Originally Posted by puzzle_bug1987
I had a therapist for seven years. He was very caring (I thought), there for me, said he'd never give up on me, listened, tried to help and on and on and all of a sudden within a week decided he couldn't help me anymore and refused to see me again. He didn't even refer me. I think he felt overwhelmed. I was struggling A LOT. I'm not saying this will happen to you. But I can relate to the fear. And the feeling that it is just a job to them. It's so much more to us. It doesn't mean they don't care, but it does mean that it is a lot easier for their lives to go on without us than it is for our lives to go on without them.  It's so confusing and overwhelming.
It's awful to need someone like this. |
I'm sorry your T did that to you
I have lost a lot of people in my life, which is why I have an extreme fear of abandonment and rejection (I even blamed current T of trying to abandon me first session...poor T). But she knew what she was getting into. I told her EVERYTHING about me. I had it all typed up in word and excel, everything from medications, diagnoses, current doctors, symptoms, past experiences, major life events...I mean everything! The only thing that might have surprised her was the fact that I can be extremely depressed and still laugh at a joke (that's the atypical depression...). But we're passed that.
It is awful to need someone like this. There are major consequences to having a relationship like this, but there are also major consequences without this relationship. Some times it's hard to figure out which one is the better choice and worth the risk.