Ever have a feeling inside that you really want to destroy something but the only thing you feel like is pathetic enough to destroy is yourself? So you do things that only end up hurting yourself (sometimes physical harm but usually little self destructive behaviors) and the thing is, you know it's going to hurt but you do it anyway. It's almost like you want bad feelings cause it's the only emotion you can handle. Why is it so hard to feel happy? Why does happiness for longer than a half hour make me so uncomfortable? I feel inspired to make a playlist about feeling this way. It's going to be a good one.

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