I would say i blindly trusted my 1st T, adored her and had her on a pedestal and ignored the warning signs that the boundaries weren't being observed. I gave away my power. I think it came from a very young place where i wanted to be looked after and to belong to someone. And when she seemed to offer some of that i ignored that she wasn't being ethical. Because my needs were bigger than any abstract ethics rule book and it was worth the risk that maybe i'd finally get my "happy ever after".

Of course, it could never be a happy ending, and it wasn't. It was a disaster and i was devastated by the betrayal. But I did learn from it, and I don't give away my power anymore, my eyes are wide open when it comes to therapists.