I snapped a laptop in half. My parents let kids use it whenever they want and I was sick of it. Teen threatened to break my foot with it, so I snapped!
When I was married, I used to break chairs, carve writings into wood, smash walls in. I have also destroyed kids toys (ones parents gave them)
All day long I mouth obscenities silently about my parents. I want them to die.
In public I am very quiet and very calm. I don't even talk.
I feel as if everyone controls me. I feel like I have to watch everything I do.
I have hardly any friends left, no one to talk to. The ones I did have lie and treat me like crap anyway. My kids hate me. I lost contact with all relatives. I hate my parents and don't even talk to them even though I live with them. If I go somewhere I hate pulling into the driveway and coming back to this house.
Parents have no friends and just watch tv and read all day and give me evil looks when I walk by. I have to watch everything I do, every sound I make.
I am extremely depressed and feel my life has no where left to go. I try to move ahead but get nowhere. ONe minute I am motivated to do something and then as soon as I look at or hear my parents I just want to go straight to bed and sleep all day!!
I have hardly any social skills. I take antidepressants. I had selective mutism as a child and have suffered from panic disorder.
I feel like I don't want to go anywhere anymore, and am getting to the point where I feel inferior to even go or talk to anyone. I feel like I am inferior and don't fit in. Everyone else has these great lives with lots of friends and places to go and I have nothing.
I can't date because I live with my parents. So I resorted to finding married men to sleep with. There is one I talk to online regularly and I find myself wanting to talk to him if something bad happens. He had become a good online friend. I haven't seen him in months even though he keeps telling me he wants to see me again. I feel as if he is the only one I can talk to but he knows nothing of these problems I have discussed on this site.
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