Hi Thunder Bow,

It is not as simple as you make it sound. I would not be online so much or on this site if I knew exactly how to resolve whatever is bothering me. So far, it has been a mystery to me, which continues to elude me.

No, I'm not seeking to be rescued. It has absolutely nothing to do with that. I take full responsibility for helping myself, which means finding whatever it is that I'm looking for. There is no easy or simple way to explain what I'm searching for, since there are both conscious and unconscious aspects to it, which I'm trying to better understand.

It is not just about the Internet. I've been searching for something for at least 45+ years, and the Internet has not been around that long. I seek this mysterious "something" wherever I go in the world. However, I spend a lot of time online because my anxiety and depression issues keep me quite isolated from the world most of the time. Thus, I do a lot of my "searching" online.

You are right though that I need more sleep. However, my building distress and sense of desperation have pressured me into some unhealthy habits.