Thanks very much . I know it seems like you need to "toughen up" but I don't know if that's the solution. I tried to do that and failed miserably, because I didn't have the social instincts that everyone else did. When you act "out of character" people really find you weird and then avoid you even more. That is what gave me depression - trying to bond with others and then failing. The final nail in the coffin for me was when I told a particular girl how much I actually loved her and failed spectacularly. She now hasn't spoken to me in about 2 years . I think for us, our mission in life is finding those who don't judge us, who accept us for who we are, with all our strange characteristics. I've come to realise how hard it is for other people to work with me, and accept me. People like predictability and things (including people) that make them happy and raise their own energy levels. When somebody like me comes along, it challenges this paradigm for them, and it's difficult, because I don't fit into their "boxes" that they've created. They never know the next step with me, and I think that's what freaks people out about me. Plus, I also look quite scary , which doesn't help. People will always avoid something (or someone) they find challenging. I can honestly say that I would have liked to have had a friend like you at my school and university, because that would've made things so much better, at least someone I can relate to. It's like normal people will just never get me . All the best to you and I truly hope things work out the way YOU want them to . If you would ever like to chat via personal messages (PM) I'll gladly do so anytime . All the best .