I have been feeling like myself for the past 3 days. It's a huge relief. Laying down the foundations for getting my life back in order. I have my doctor's appt on Wednesday and I'll find out what my bloodwork is like then. I'm a little concerned about hyperthyroidism since I've lost 10 lbs in the last 6 months, but I broke my arm in October and with the depression, my appetite and motivation to eat has not been so great.

I'm very hopeful and grateful for all the support I get here. This last mixed episode was so strange and I always marvel when I come out of them or the depressions how its almost like I can't relate to that creature that I become when I'm in them.

Going to the beach with my Mom, son and friend's family today. It will be good to actually do something fun and WANT to! That's what I missed. The desire to do what I enjoy. Glad it's back and I want you all to know that the darkness DOES NOT LAST FOREVER. Though it's hard to believe it when your down in it.