Here is something I learned in AA along time ago.

That my alcoholism and addiction are a disease. In my case highly genetic. Alcoholism and mental illness run rampant on both sides of my family. It is not my fault that I have this disease. I am not to blame for having this disease. But it is what it is. I have it.

However I am responsible for my actions. I am responsible to do something about it. If I am actively using and drinking and it is hurting everything and everyone around me then it is up to me to do something about it. How can I continue on hurting everyone I love and who loves me. How can I do this to my daughter which will damage her for life. I have to do something about it. I have to seek out the treatment I need. I have to do what ever it takes to get clean and sober. If that means going to AA and swallowing all my pride then so be it.

This is also true for my depression. It is not my fault but it is my job to seek out the treatment I need. My depression is much more of a bugger and I have not had as much success. But nevertheless I am responsible. It was something others had to teach me. And for this I am eternally grateful.