Most people bore me. It sounds snobby, I know, but I'm smart, highly-motivated, passionate, bi polar, and have BPD. It takes a lot to keep my interest. It's not that others are bad, I'm just not feeling it.

Anyway, I really thought that I would make it to my late twenties before everyone around me appeared to be in a serious relationship or settling down. But it is happening now at the tender age of 23. It's easy to think that there is something wrong with me because everyone else can have a stable relationship but me, it appears.

However, I don't find myself envying the relationships of others around me. I have a lower threshold for the immaturity of men and the insecurity/jealousy of women around me.

I do have my flaws that push people away and realize that more stability may come as I work on them. However, I'm always told that I am "going for the wrong people."

No one can be attracted to something they are not into. However, most of the men I get with are emotionally unstable in some regard and end up hurting me or abandoning me. The only exception is my ex who moved to China.

I think it's because they are the only people who don't bore me. My emotionally stable ex was probably able to keep my interest because he was passionate and adventurous. It's hard to come by, especially in my college city.

Am I on to something here? Will I maybe have much better luck in Beijing (move in 5 weeks)? Thoughts?