I live with my father who is a functionable alcoholic, hes very successful but made some mistakes in life and its like I need to get high just to deal with him. He was just diagnosed with liver cancer and still drinks. Im also 36 years old and also an addict. I tend to stay home all the time, I really wanna go out but when I do he would call me like 10 times wondering where I am. Tbis was about when I was 28 to present.

Could he be giving me the paranoid feelings, like im afraid to go out because hes wondering where I am. He took 5000 dollars outta my bank account without telling me. He has given me everything growing up but he is impossible to talk too. I should be on my own at this age, its so confusing. I need to get a job but my soical anxiety is horrible. All we do is wstch tv together all day and hardly talk.

I shouldnt judge him. Geezi just dont know. I collect disability and for me to get my own place they would take more money outta my check. I have so msny hospital bills, i dont know anything about bankruptcy. Im just really confused. If I was stable I would of moved out a long time ago. I was an addict my whole life, I use to steal from them and I should be thankful they still will let me live under their roof. Its a difficult situation.

I think I will take the dogs to the park today because im feeling good.