The devoid of emotion thing is the worst. I hope you find someone to talk to. It seemed to me that talking about things is what makes you able to feel again. I am thankful that I only had that part of it for a short-time (seeked a T rather quickly). I hope you find someone that you can trust to talk to about this feeling. I know it is hard to reach out especially when words can't quite describe what this feeling is like. people think of depression as sadness. They forget about the lack of feeling part of it which can be the worst part.