Hi Rose,
So sorry you could not solve your foot problem and you feel so low. If living with him will make you happier, you should. But somebody should help you out, as you need help, as well. Somehow, there may be a time when you cultivate new friendships other than his. You know there are good people out of there. I do not know where you can take the strength from in order to reach out. I guess you already know you have to do it but I think it is hard for you right now. It is hard for me, too. As I told you last time, I think things will eventually accommodate. Perhaps this is your time to assist your bf above all. perhaps if you pay a bit more attention to yourself and split your effort between yourself and your bf you will be better and able to fully live the present moment. That may clarify if he can stay at home and will include other interested parties in the decision making process of such a decision. Beyond all this, I think we have been educated to take care of others and postpone our own needs. This is a bit dangerous sometimes and does not bring harmony to our lives. Because of the way we have been educated and the kind of reward our minds are used to, it is easy sometimes take care of others than give the proper care to ourselves. I do this all the time, and I become somebody whom people take advantage of sometimes. I felt I needed to tell you this even though it may not fit into your particular situation. I mean, I think perhaps it is fine and a good thing to do to move with your bf and/or dedicate a lot of time to him, but, watch out, it should bring joy to your life and you should not overlook your own well being. You deserve to be well and loved. I wish you the best, sorry if my comments are not appropriate