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Old Apr 06, 2014, 05:21 PM
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Psychology is quite fascinating I find too. Not sure why, but it's just all very interesting.

At least to some degree, I think I was delusional. I had people watching me outside my window and cameras watching me since I was 6. Now that I think of it, I also had visions for a while. A voice told me how to position myself (I was oh, say 11) and then another being would appear in my mind and tell me all sorts of wisdom. By the time I was 13 it'd grown to an organization who was after my powers and intelligence and they also setup spyware on my computer. I was always being watched by them, I had to monitor my every word and movement just about, I was performing for them in a way. But I was very suspicious it was all moot because they probably could look into my mind too. Sometimes I found myself monitoring how I even thought because they might be watching. (also why I never told anyone this) Then when I was 16 it grew to what I was telling you about before. And you're right, it did just all evaporate, slowly, over a few months to a year, but it did. Then it took another year or two for me to gain any insight and suddenly my whole life has been a lie lol :/ I've only recently started taking the AP so... yeah didn't know that was all uncommon.

This has really helped me get my thoughts out somehow. I was able to compile some of the things I wrote and printed it out. I'm going to show it to my therapist on tuesday and see what she thinks... actually I'm a bit nervous to show her because she's a Christian and some of the areas are, well, religious in a way...
I'm already on a schizoid site, but I'm going to explore a forum more schizophrenia-centric, see how things pan out.
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