That all sounds very overwhelming... is your t available between sessions? Or does she recommend a crisis line? I know with my own stuff, t warned me that other stuff may come up and gave me the center's crisis number in case. Processing stuff like that can be really difficult... i would also suggest talking to your t about the fears of her seeing you differently. I still talk to my t about that, because sometimes I get scared that she will agree everything was my own fault... hang in there and know that you can choose to back off from anything and start talking about easier things at any time (even if it's just to say what you had for dinner, or if you will be doing anything special over the weekend). I've found (for me) that opening the door to things brings on a bunch of stuff that I then also need to address. It becomes very urgent to tell t, so I leave her a message. Most of the time, I will also writes it out in a blog that only she and I have access to. Then we either make an earlier session, or talk about it the following week (depending on my sense of urgency). I also ask just about every other week if she thinks I'm awful and deserved everything. So far, she has been really patient and kind in reminding me that her opinion of me has not changed and she will never think it was all my fault (even when I'm convinced she should). I hope your t is also supportive and that you can move in whatever direction you need to go.